holiday alone

almost all restaurents are closed today. i ride my bike hunting for food. landing at McDonald's, i order a cheeseburger and a small pop for today's thanksgiving dinner, and i am most thankful that McDonald's is open.

sitting by the window, i enjoy the moment when my eyes try to resist the sunlight. i see my face reflecting on a translucent material, and i adore my silky skin, wishing it'll be the same when i'm 40....i feel lucky cos the radio's playing radiohead, "just cos you feel it, doesn't mean it's there...." with Thom Yorke's sleepy voice.

i remember when i was back home, i so dreamed to be alone on holidays -- no family gatherings and socializing. now that pretty much everyone in school went home for thanksgiving, and i'm having the holiday all to myself, i still don't miss all the family gatherings but just wish someone could be here with me: i look at the person in the eye, and he/she stares back at me. we enjoy the moment, and when we finish eating our burger, we leave, each going separate ways.

it's a quite, sunny day. alone and silent. i just turned 21.